life is messy and sublime. i am blessed and broken. i live the full catastrophe and float in a dream above ten thousand tragic events. my flesh tears open and my blood spills like milk. i survive falls and bounce on cement. my ego is dashed and crushes like a pop can under a car wheel. my ego is an impenetrable fortress. my heart is expansive like vapor and clouds forming mountainous on the horizon. my heart is a tight nut in a bitter shell. today is a nightmare of fear and stress and anxiety. today is a magical mystery tour.