Thank you
all for the birthday nods. Turning 51 is
like - - - well, turning 51. I mean, you
have a lot to look at. You can see most
of what you have been able to put together.
And it is pretty amazing. I have a ton to be thankful for. I could list it all here, but it pretty much
boils down to my wife, my kids, my friends, and my family. Beyond that, as far as what I have accomplished,
well, it is what it isn’t, and it is what it is. And I have to know that it is what I have
made of it. At 51 you kind of figure,
ok, maybe 20 years left. Maybe more,
maybe less. I figure 71 is pushing it,
given how I have treated myself. 71 is a lot farther than I ever thought I
would go. 81 would mean medical advances
and lucky gene draw. I can see myself
still doing things at 71. But after that, I just see a drop off the like those
old maps of the flat world. What I know,
what I can imagine, and then the edge where only dragons and gods can be
drawn. And they are crude renditions at
that. So 20 years is…. It’s a lot.
At 20 that is your whole life. So
20 seem like a lot. At 40 it is half time.
At 60 it is thirds. At 100, 20
years is a fifth. But 20 years now,
tacked onto 50, is not like 20 years tacked onto 0. It’s a lot different. A day now is like a month at 7. When I was 8, a year was an eternity. At 51 a year is like, “oh crap, did that get
by me already?” It’s gone. A week is a hiccup. A Month is maybe a few days to catch my
breath, maybe. A year – wow. I don’t even want to think about that. So 20 years after 50 is kind of like dog
years. Each year is really more like 1/7th
of a year. So in terms of what I can realistically expect
to accomplish, well. Let’s just say, as a realist, not so
much. As an optimist, maybe a lot. As an
idealist, oh what I could do with 20 years.
Thank God for idealism. 20 years is
a good amount of time. I just need to constantly
remind myself how much I can get done in a day, if I want to. Be very well all my friends and family. I love you.
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