It’s been a good day, can’t sleep now. I couldn’t sleep last night. The moon’s position, the alignment of stars, neurons firing for no real reason…, I don’t really know. But it’s ok. I will sleep another time. I am trying, this eve, to position things in my house. Looking for that elegant solution. Maybe it’s there, maybe it isn’t. It doesn’t really matter. Someday I will wish I had all these moments back. It will haunt me that I didn’t spend them more intentionally. But tonight, I don’t care too much about someday. I am just here today. And today is ok. And if I puts away a precious eve…, perhaps I will pay the tax of regret in some end of life perspective accounting. I may say, “Yea, you are right. I should have been doing more.” So send me back and I will try to do better next time. There is a point you come to in life when you realize you won’t change the world. You won’t be a hero, or a martyr, or a player in the game. You won’t realize those dreams you dreamed. You will just be among the innumerable souls that came and took this ride. Emm… so harsh a thing to say…. So sad. So pessimistic. Yea. But is it so bad? Does a tree in the forest regret not changing the world? Does a sunset wish it would be more effective? Does a rain storm go away depressed if it doesn’t make a difference? I don’t think so. I think we are what we are and we do what we do. And in the end…. I don’t know…, maybe it isn’t so much about whether we changed the course of history, or whether we were an anonymous soul living out a day to day existence. Maybe it all boils down to whether we were simply conscious, or not, of the simple fact that we were alive. That we had a breath to breathe in a moment of time. Did we even know we were breathing it? What did I do today? Not much really. But it was s nice day. A very nice day.